Pins and Needles....without the Pins.

WARNING: There are photos of me injecting myself. If you are afraid of needles, then best you dont look :)

I dragged my needle hating lover out of bed this morning to document what has become my daily routine. 8:20am every morning I inject myself. I cant say why is become that time, it just has. The aim for this blog is to share the routine and to also give you an outline of what "Hodgkins Lymphoma" is.


When I was first diagnosed, a lot of people would say to me "is that the bad one??" when I told them what I had.....I never really knew how to react to that and kind of didn't know what they meant by it. Any form of Cancer is not ideal to be completely honest!! I would rather have no form!! BUT after finding out exactly what Cancer I had and the differences between "Non-Hodgkins" and "Hodgkins Lymphoma", I understood peoples reactions.

"Lymphoma" is the general term for cancers that develop in the lymphatic system.Lymphoma originates from lymphocytes that have gone through a malignant change. They multiply without any order, forming tumors, which are made up of cancer cells. These tumors cause swelling in the Lymph nodes and other parts of the body. After a while, Lymphoma cells crowd out normal Lymphocytes and eventually the immune system becomes weakened and can no longer function properly. There are actually 35 different types of Lymphoma currently. Five of these sub-types belong to a group of diseases called Hodgkin Lymphoma and all the others are grouped together under non-Hodgkin Lymphomas. About 75 New Zealanders per year are diagnosed with Hodgkins Lymphoma (Dont know where the hell I got my first statistic in the first blog haha,) most commonly between the ages of 15-30 years and 50-70 years.

Hodgkin Lymphoma may affect a single lymph node or a group of lymph node or can affect other part of the body such as the spleen, liver and bone marrow. In more advanced stages, Hodgkins Lymphoma can spread via the lymphatic system and the blood, to almost any part of the body. DONT FREAK OUT!! I have Stage 2B Nodular Sclerosing Hodgkins Lymphoma, which just means that the Cancer is in two groups of lymph nodes. In my case, my neck and in my chest. The B means that I have the symptoms associated with the Cancer. These include fever, night sweats, unexplained weight loss and itching of the skin.

When I found out I had Cancer, I wanted to know what I had done to get the Cancer and where I had gone wrong. I like to think I am a healthy person....in terms of my diet. Sure I have no problem admitting I like the odd KFC hit but I do eat healthy. The only thing really that lets me down is the fact that I dont exercise....L to the AZY.

They dont really know what causes Hodgkins Lymphoma. They do know its not contagious....!!!! There is some evidence that people are more at risk of developing HL if their Immune system has been weakened either by a VIRAL infection such as HIV (Happy to say that I dont have Aids!) or as a result of the use of drugs which affect the function of the Immune system. These drugs are commonly ones used when someone has an organ transplant. This made perfect sense in my case. I had Viral Meningitis when I was about 3 years old and also had a very lengthy period where I had Glandular fever. So basically I am F****D! Haha When I think about it, no wonder my Immune system is shot! We have no family history of this particular Cancer and that is often the case with Hodgkins Lymphoma Patients.

I dont know much about Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma but I do know that it can rapidly spread and if you have that form of Cancer, you have a high Chance of it becoming Leukemia also.

I met my support Nurse last week :) She is lovely. She is basically there to support me and answer any questions I might have and also if I need any help getting to and from appointments etc. It was so great to talk to her and I loved how honest she was. She warned me of a few things that I had already picked on with people and how they react to finding out. It was just good to know that I wasnt wrong with how I felt with certain things.

We spoke a bit about Chemo. When I think about Chemo, I feel sick and want to cry a little. I am scared, even though I know that I am going to be ok and could be going through a lot worse of a treatment plan. I am SO lucky with the treatment plan I will be receiving.

I received a letter from my Doctor that she puts together for my GP and Fertility Doctor, following the PET scan in Christchurch which went as follows "The plan once her Fertility treatment is complete, is for six cycles of ABVD chemotherapy and on completion of this, she will almost certainly require consolidation radiotherapy for three to six weeks down in Christchurch.".......Gee Willy! I am really hoping that the Chemo will be enough to get rid of the Bastard.

My nurse went through some of the side effects that I could expect. Things like Nausea and vomiting I expected but there were some things that I wasn't expecting.

The thing that surprised me the most was how much my mouth could be affected. Changes in taste and smell and also a thing called Mucositis all can occur during Chemo. Mucositis is inflammation of the lining of the mouth and throat. The aim of Chemo is to attack fast growing cells (which is what cancer is) and your mouth area is made up of those cells, so it takes a bit of a beating. Oral Hygiene is extremely important but I am a bit of freak with that already so I am sure I will have no problem. Hair loss is something that I am ready for. I know of a guy that was Diagnosed with the same thing as me the week I found out that I might have it. He has had about 3 rounds of chemo already and has had limited side effects. Hasn't even started to lose his hair so that gives me a bit of hope that I might not have to much trouble with side effects. I know everyone is different but heres hoping that all will be smooth sailing :)

My Nurse also told me about the sickness benefit etc. While I should be fine with working through the treatment she said I should definitely check out how much I am intitled to incase I have a bad time with side effects etc. This meant having to go into WINZ and picking up a form. The first time I went in the place was packed! There was no way I was waiting round....Hate to sound up myself but I felt quite uncomfortable in there...So I left. I decided to go to a different and smaller branch.

In I went the second time and there was no one around!! YES I thought! I will be in and out with no problems. I went to the reception and a lady came over. I will be completely honest and say she looked like she couldn't give a S**T and didn't wanna be there. Made me a little nervous. I said "Hi. Im here to pick up a Sickness benefit form." Said sweetly and with a smile. She just stopped in her tracks and stared at me....Im not joking. Looked me up and down and hesitated. GREAT! A mexican stand off in WINZ! I stared back waiting for her to give me the form. She hesitated some more and I could tell she was thinking "You dont look like you need it." So I just said what I hate saying. "I HAVE CANCER AND WILL BE STARTING CHEMO IN JANUARY.".....She started walking towards me a little bit more, still eye balling me. She got the form and before handing it to me she held it close to her body and gave me one last scan before saying "You do realise you will need a doctors certificate to prove you are sick...." I could not believe what I was hearing. I grabbed the form and walked out. My Nurse had warned me about going into WINZ and now I know why. I considered ringing and complaining but I left in such a rush I didn't think to look at her name badge or anything and really I just couldn't be bothered as it probably wouldn't change her attitude.

I also thought that she probably deals with all sorts and lets be honest I wouldn't like to have her job. I decided that its just one of those things and I will not let it bother me! It just amazes me that people can judge so easily. You pass someone in the street and you have no idea what is going on in their life. I have made such an effort to remember this. Apart from that everything has been great.

I have had no problems taking my injections. I have found that I cant stick the needle into the left side of my tummy. For some reason its a heap more sensitive than the right. I can just stick the needle in without feeling it now :) PRO!!! My friend finally decided to show her face. A week late but thats ok. We will let it slide. I have a blood test next week to see how my levels are looking and then we will start different drugs to prep me for my egg harvesting. The egg harvesting wont be happening till about the 9/01/12, which means my chemo start date will be pushed back as-well. Not bothered.

I am plodding along and have lots of exciting shoots coming up!! We were fine during the recent floods here in Nelson. Have to admit it felt weird to be in another State of Emergency. Was a scary time for a lot of people!! We had a bit of flooding up our sreet but nothing serious :) Was a little annoying and freaked me out with having so many shoots coming up, I just wanted the rain to stop!!! Christmas in a Week :) I am getting excited now. Mainly for the food and good old fashioned family fun. Cam and I managed to get all our Christmas shopping done yesterday. What a relief!!!

The above photo proves to the cynics that I do have something to stick the needle into it!! I know I have lost a bit of weight but I eat enough food to make sure theres something left haha I havent really noticed much change in my body since starting the injections. My Boobs are fuller....Not bigger, just feel fuller somehow. Also my ovaries are FULL! To the point where the other night I was feeling quite uncomfortable and I felt the ovary area and I was so bloated. FULL OF BABIES!! My fiend Phily said yesterday "Look at you walking towards me with those full ovaries." Haha it made me laugh so much. I like it that we can laugh. Through it all, there is reason to laugh and that is because Life is so good!! Laughing about it all makes it easier and if it helps others, feel free to crack jokes about my ovaries. Not quite at the joking stage with Cancer just yet but knowing me and my family we will get there.

And that my friends is the last photo to show my daily routine. Not very exciting really. Done and dusted in about 2 minutes. FYI - I have tried making the photos bigger but this is as good as it gets. You can click on the photos to make them bigger if your abit of a needle freak and wanna take a closer look :)

Thanks for taking the time to read my blog. I hope its been an interesting read and you have learnt something. I just want people to understand what I have. Saves the questions :)

If I dont blog before Christmas, I want to take the opportunity now to wish you a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. If you are traveling, be safe! Enjoy the company you keep and fine wine you drink! I havent had a drink since finding out about the bastard and will treating myself to a few tipples on Christmas :) will probably sit me on my arse!!! But really, I hope you have a lovely Christmas. This year has been a real shitter of a year! No censoring that one because its the truth. I dont like wishing my time away but I cant wait to see the back side of 2011. It has been a year that has changed my life, much like a lot of people. It will be one we never forget! Heres to 2012! The year of new beginnings and kicking some serious Cancer Arse!!

Love to each and everyone of you! A.x

All I want for Christmas......?

My Blog has become quite the topic of conversation lately. People say that they admire my honesty and my ability to be so open. Yes. I am a VERY open person. I have no problem saying things about myself that most people would be able to say. This has become a bit of problem. I was sitting with my Mum after Cam and I got back from Christchurch yesterday and I was telling her about my trip.
It basically consisted of Periods.....Ovaries.....and semen samples. Mum looked at me and said "Oh you wont put that on your blog will you?" I caught myself mid sentence and thought hmmmmmm I wonder how much detail is acceptable/what people actually want to know about me. Where do I draw the line....I have decided to talk about all that happened on out trip to Christchurch because I know a lot of you genuinely like knowing what is happening. I just want any of you that might not want to know all the details now, so you dont read :)

 We had kind of forgotten is was December and nearing to Christmas until we arrived in Christchurch and went to Riccarton Mall.....CHAOS! They had people directing you where to go to get parks and it was insanely busy inside. The Christmas madness had begun. We havent even started our Christmas Shopping which is typical. We have compiled a list of things we have thought of getting people but that is as far as it goes. This year I am a little bit Team Ba Humbug. I am looking forward to being surrounded by my beautiful Family and eating my heart out but just the whole Christmas thing is a little bit to much to handle at the moment.

The purpose of the trip was for me to learn about how to take the Fertility Drugs. One thing we have learnt very quickly is that things NEVER work out how you expect and things are always a little more complicated. We arrived to the fertility appointment and sat down in the waiting room Either side of us we had to strollers with children inside. The parents would have been in their mid - late 30's. In pop Cam and I who are obviously a little younger, Me in a singlet, jeans + jandles and Cam in his favourite, WELL LOVED/Holey jeans and a shirt with ACID written across it.....Really Cameron! The one time we should probably look like we are well rounded, mature young adults and you chose to wear that shirt. I know they probably weren't but I felt the other couples in the waiting room looking at us. Not married, young adults at a fertility clinic. I felt like saying "I wouldn't normally hang out here but I have Cancer...." Its just amazing how easy it is to judge a book by its cover and as I write this I realise that I probably judged them just as quickly as they judged me...

The children stared too. I know thats what kids do but it just made me chuckle. It was like our fate was staring at us one last time, making sure we knew what we were doing before we signed all the paper work and jumped feet first into this Fertility Pool.

Our names were called and in we went. I cannot fault the Doctors that I have had the privilege of meeting so far. Each one unique but they are all doing their absolute best and making me feel like this is going smoothly. We went through all the documents and signed the many dotted lines. This was basically to say we understood the procedures that would follow and also in the case of either one of passing away, what would we want each other to do with the Embryos. If everything wasn't heavy enough!!! This was also a big appointment for us as we were telling the Doctor what way we wanted to go, which was Embryo Freezing. I wouldn't say there was a lot of pressure, but when we first met the Doctor she was very strong on the point that Cam and I are young and not married and that things can change over time blah blah blah and that later on down the track we might not be together and that leaves embryos to fight over etc etc. I understand that it is their job to say all these things but this WASNT something that we thought over for 5 minutes. We have talked about it and Marriage and children was where we were heading anyway.

Once all the questions had been asked and answered and everything was signed they sprung an Ovary ultrasound on me......Yup.....Up goes the probe and they look around at your goodies aka the ovaries. I have lovely ovaries apparently, Jam packed with eggs. In fact I had 12 on one side and 15 on the other. Good time to make a baby! We were under the understanding that I was due to start my period on the 6th, which is when I ALWAYS get it and my bloods were showing we were on track. I was given my needles + drugs and was shown how to inject them. I just grab a little tummy fat and stick the needle into that and its done :) So we left on the understanding that my period would come in a coule of days and that I would start the injection.......

A few days passed and we were actually meant to go back to Nelson on Sunday but I got a call from the Radiology doctors saying that they needed me for a PET Scan on the Tuesday. The radioactive scans can only be done in Christchurch and the Radioactive injection is flown down from Wellington the morning it will be used. Cam also got the dreaded call to say that he was required to do the all important Semen Sample.....We knew I had the goods and now it was up to Cam to keep his end of the bargain. He did the sample on the Tuesday morning before my appointment. Turns out we both had a little bit of stage fright that day haha. I was due to start my period but there was still no sign of it so I had a blood test and it showed that I am not going to get it for at least another week....This screwed everything up. My Injections and also possibly my Chemo start date. The nurse said that this is normal under the circumstances. That my body is going through and processing a lot and its a little stressed. Crazy what can change!!

It came time for Cammy to do his sample and all went smoothly....He will admit though that it was a lot of pressure and that he did have a little bit of stage fright. Understandable!! Im having stage fright without even knowing it. I then headed for the scan.

A PET scan is basically a CT scan but they inject a Radioactive compound that is attracted to masses such as tumors and can show the energy consumption rather than just its structure, So this would show up any other little bits of cancer that I might have in my body. Because the injection was a sugar substance I had to sit completely still for an hour after the injection. Sugar naturally goes to muscles that are moving, so to prevent these muscles from taking up the radioactive sugar and obscuring normal areas, I had to be still. I was mighty comfortable and even fell asleep. They had a nice lazy boy chair for me and I got to wear a Sexy hospital gown :) After the hour was up I went and had my scan. All went well and they said I had "really nice pictures" which sounds good but I guess I dont really understand what that means....haha We drove back to Nelson the next day.

I am getting quite tired with all that is going on and I really try my best to get a good nights sleep but lately it has been hard. Its not like I am worrying about things, I just cant switch my brain off. My new Fertility Drugs arrived today and I injected myself for the first time this morning while the Nurse from the Fertility Associates talked me through it on the phone. I hesitated for a bit and it was hard to shove the needle into my stomach. Its so unnatural but I have done it now! Now we wait.....See how my levels go and if my period decides to show. This will determine when I will have my eggs harvested and then when I will start Chemo. So a bit of a waiting game but in the mean time I get to stick myself with needles. Cant complain :)

 Seeing all our Beautiful friends in Christchurch was just what we needed. It was so good to see you all and I hope it helped you to see me as much as it helped me seeing you. I will be seeing you all again soon. Now something a little bit cute to leave you with after all the period talk. As we were driving home from Christchurch Cam turned to me and said very sweetly "Once our baby is frozen, does that technically mean we celebrate Mothers Day?" I dont think so Cammy but if you wanna buy me flowers I wont object. I love that Man.

I hope you all are more organised than I am with all this Christmas kerfuffle. Enjoy it with the ones you love. A.x

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Baby Talk & Chemotherapy....

It has been 5 days since my last blog entry and it has had almost 800 people read it....To say I have been overwhelmed would be a major understatement. Overwhelmed just does not cut it. The outpouring of support and kind words has been really emotional to receive. Emails from complete strangers saying that they admire my strength and are sending me positive vibes has been really overwhelming for me. I have struggled with knowing what to say, as there really is no words to describe how it feels to feel so loved and cared for. There is also no amount of times I can say Thank you, to make you understand how grateful I am.

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!! 

I could say it a million times and it still would never be enough! The last two days have been the hardest for me so far. No, I havent wallowed in a corner and no, I havent stayed in bed for two days straight (although it has been tempting.) I have just quietly processed all that I have been told and all that I have been talking about for last 4 weeks as it becomes a reality.
"Yeah, I will have about 6 months of Chemo" I say.....Then my mind catches up with what I have just said and it realizes that I actually have to do that....Its not just words anymore. I have felt like I am out of my body. Im sure to some that would sound crazy but for those of you who have experienced it, you will know exactly what I mean. I feel like I am sitting up in the corner of the room I am in and I am watching myself move about, continuing with daily routine.

I went for a drive with my good friend, Philippa last night and she pointed out that although I havent lost someone, I have lost a little part of myself through this experience and I am grieving. A light bulb went off and everything she was saying made sense. I am grieving. In some weird way I am.

Cam and I had our first fertility appointment yesterday and I must say it was such a huge eye opener for me. I have nothing but the utmost respect for anyone that is reading this who has been through IVF. What an incredible and emotional roller coaster. I am lucky enough to have my treatments funded and I have to admit that I feel a little bad that I am so lucky......For those that cant have children and have to pay for these treatments and then for them not to work out must be so heartbreaking....I learnt so much and I dont know what I was expecting but its so much more complicated than I could have ever imagined.

Cam has been so amazing.

Poor boy picked a dud when he picked me!! haha I kid. Having a baby is one of the biggest decisions people make in their lives.....when your ready. Cam and I have had to think about our entire future together + our children. Its not something that we have never spoken about but its definitely something that we havent gone into great detail about. "How many children would you like? What names do you like?" are pretty much as far as we have ever gotten and even then, no real decision making was needed as it was only what ifs. Call me old fashioned but I always thought that my wedding day would be what I would be deciding first, not the future of my children.

We were given two options. The first was just the egg freezing and storage which would only require me and the second was egg harvesting, with embryo freezing which would of course require both of us to give up the goods....Haha. Cam couldn't help but chuckle whenever the Doctor would say "SEMEN SAMPLE!!!" The laughing stopped however when she told us that we were required to both go for a blood test after the appointment. I didn't bat an eye lid but Cam was not overly excited. I had never realised just how much he hates getting blood tests. I thought that he would be fine aslong as he didn't watch so I would keep him distracted. How wrong was I!! The poor boy went so white and a little gray and started sweating during the blood tests and not once did he look at the needle. I felt so bad for him as I didn't realise just how bad he takes them. After a lie down, a drink of water and a cold napkin on his head, he was back to normal and off we went to treat ourselves to Ice Cream, as our first step to securing our children's future was completed.

I have to go down to Christchurch to learn how to take the drugs for the treatment. Its done through self injection and NO Cam wont be helping me haha. This will most likely be happening at the end of the week. I have to wait for my period to come and go (Sorry to all the men that are reading this) and then I can start the drugs and then from there I will go back down to Christchurch once the eggs are ready and I will have them removed. The process is not to painful when it happens but I have been told that after it can be quite painful. I am sure its nothing I cant handle. Us Women are built tough :)

Today I met with my Doctor to talk Chemo! Woo!!! I <3 my Doctor. She is so very genuine and honest. I appreciate it!! So I will have my first round of Chemo on Wednesday the Eleventh of January, Two thousand and Twelve. Before any of you go "Gosh thats ages away!!!" Really it sounds like it is but with all this fertility kerfuffle going to take about a month, its a realistic date. Also I have a Wedding that I am photographing on the 7th which I am NOT missing because it something I have been looking forward to for forever!! My Doctor has reassured me that I dont need to worry. I am not showing any signs of being really unwell. Yes I have cancer but I am not really sick. I am happy with this date and outcome so if you still feel that its ages away at least know that I am ok and I am happy. At least I know now where I am headed. The limbo has ended and I have direction. THANK GOODNESS!


Also I am super stoked - I get a wig!!! I cant wait to go hairstyle shopping. I would love any ideas (no joking please!) as to what you think I would suit etc. Im thinking of a bob or long straight hair.....Jeepers I am so excited. With all the garbage that comes with this experience there are still things that get me excited and getting a wig is one of them!!!

While this is all daunting, I am slowly coming to terms with everything and I understand that its ok to not be ok. I also know that I will be ok. I have truly felt such strength over the last few weeks from everyones support and messages.The prayers, healing vibes and just simply the words have all helped and I appreciate each and everyone of you. You inspire me. I thank you for inspiring me. There is a lot left to my life and I am excited for my future and the things I will achieve. This year in itself has been huge for me. I have set myself up with my Photography Business with nothing but positivity. It has been hard and Im not completely there yet but I have gotten to this point. It just shows that you can really do anything you put your mind to and if you want something to happen, you make it become a reality. I am living the dream.

I love what I do and I do what I love. A.x

Dropping a bomb shell...

I have agonised over people finding this out....How do I tell them??? What do I say?? etc etc....

 Yes, I have Cancer. 

I found out about two weeks ago that it was a possibility and was officially diagnosed on Wednesday the Twenty Third of November, Two thousand and Eleven.
A bit of history, for those who dont know....I have had a Thyroid problem since I was 14 years old. It was treated when I was 16 and I was fine for about two years. A lump returned in my throat, so back to the doctor I went to say that the Thyroid gland had flared up and they put me on the appropriate medicine and away I went. When Cam and I moved back to Nelson I went to my Gp here and requested to see a surgeon to get the Thyroid removed, because despite my Thyroid levels being normal, the lump would not go away and in fact it was getting bigger..

The ball got rolling and the surgeon ordered that I have an Ultra sound so he could see where the "thyroid" was placed in my neck so he could plan an appropriate procedure to remove it. I knew something was up when I had my ultra sound because the lovely nurse that was seeing me that day was visibly shocked when she saw the size of the mass and how it was placed. She tried her very best to make me comfortable and not let on that it was anything bad. Next thing you know, I am in having a CT scan. I thought it was simply another test for the surgeon to get a better understanding of the location of the "Thyroid." I thought it was a little bit strange when they told me that they were going to do a full body scan. I said that they probably didn't need to worry because the only thing they needed to check was my throat....They said "Oh we are just going to check that your bones are in line.".......What!??? Check that my bones are in line??? I wasn't going to argue and let them do what they needed to do.

 A few days passed and I was out discovering beautiful places with a Landscape designer that I was Photographing for when I received a call from my GP to say that I needed to go and in and see him straight away. I could hear in his voice that something wasn't ok. I rang my Mum to say that I was headed to the Doctor and told her if I needed her I would call.

 I got in there and he told me that there is a high chance that I have Hodgkins Lymphoma, which is a form of Cancer......That the huge lump in my throat was actually a Tumor. The first thing that raced through my head was "DELTRA GOODREM!!" I remembered her having a very public battle with this Cancer when I was in my teens. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I rang my Mum and she came in and was told. I felt terrible for my GP. He is probably the sweetest Man you will ever meet and he didn't technically have to tell me that I have Cancer. He requested that I saw him because he didn't want a complete stranger telling me the news. That is something I will be forever grateful for.

I had two Biopsies the following weeks and the results came back as positive for Hodgkins Lymphoma.

I apologise to those who are finding this out by reading this but I feel its the easiest way for me to get the news out there. I am not good with telling people face to face..... I am ok! Its not ideal but its something that I have no doubt I will overcome. Positivity is a strong and great thing and I have plenty of it. Cam and I are in the process of sorting out the future of our Babies :) We have an appointment with the Fertility Clinic and will probably be going with the IVF option. So crazy to think we will have a baby.......Also crazy to think that when that child is eventually born, we can tell it (eventually!!) that it was conceived so many years ago....CRAZY!!! I am also meeting with my Doctor next week to find out my treatment plan and how long I will be receiving Chemo.

 I know that this is not something anyone wants to read but I need you to understand that I am ok. I have my moments but if you saw me in the street and you didn't know that I was sick, you wouldn't be able to tell. I am just carrying on as normal. In terms of my work, the Doctor has assured me that I will still be capable of Photographing. I have however emailed the Clients that have bookings with me over the next year to give them the heads up and also the opportunity to change their bookings. I have to say I have been truly overwhelmed by their responses. The kindest words from complete strangers and it has really warmed my heart.

 To those who have sent flowers, cards, baked, called, popped round and simply sent me a lovely text.....Thank you from the bottom of my heart. You dont understand how much it means to me having you all surrounding me. How can I not get better with the great friends and family that I have!!!!???? I am going to kick the bastard so hard up the back side, it wont dare return!!!! I will be documenting my journey through this blog and through photographs, so just a heads up if its too heavy for you, you probably dont want to read this blog anymore. Thank you for taking the time to read this... I wish I was telling you all that I won lotto or something but maybe one day?? :) Eat healthy, exercise and be happy! Take care and have a lovely day. I know I will :) A.x

My time up the mine.

Hi Lovelies.

A while since I have posted....Slap on the wrist for me!!

Today I am blogging about my time up at the Roa and Echo Coal mines last month. I was asked to go up to the mines and photograph the gear and also do some Aerial shots of the Mine itself. Something I had never done before and I jumped at the chance to do something out side my comfort zone.

I wasn't sure what to expect really. We got to Reefton and it was raining (surprise surprise!) We went up to the Roa Mine first. Roa is predominantly an underground mine producing high quality hard coking coal. The drive was steep and when we got to the top I could not believe how freezing it was. My hands were literally frozen within seconds and I couldn't tell if I was taking photos or not... It was amazing though. The height we were at, blew me away and I couldn't believe they had put the road up to the top themselves.

My partner (Cam) and I with Cam's Uncle Ross up the top of Roa Mine. FREEZING!!

The Weather wasn't playing the game we wanted it to, so we decided to go to Christchurch early and then come back through Reefton. The weather was forecasting fine weather and I kept my fingers crossed that it didn't change. We arrived back to Reefton and the weather couldnt have been better. The sun was shining and there was hardly a cloud in the sky.
I was taken up to Echo Mine this time. Echo is an opencast coal mine. I was prepared for it to be amazing but I was still blown away by the size of the trucks etc and the area that they cover. The digger and truck drivers acted like they didn't care to have their photo taken but I know they enjoyed it. I provided them some entertainment by getting stuck in mud multiple times. So much so that one time I had to get two guys to lift my out of the mud i had become submerged in.....A little embarrassing to say the least!

I embraced the high vis jacket and gumboots, got mud all over me and left my appearance cares behind for the two days I photographed up at Echo. We got the opportunity to ride on the biggest digger I have ever seen, that was called "Big Donga."

After photographing all the gear up at the mine, the guy who was showing us around got a phone call to say that the Chopper was on its way to pick me up to take Aerial shots. A wave of nerves came over me but I didn't have time to get to worked up about the heights. I got into the chopper and they said to me " Door on or off?".....I stared at them for a second, processing what they had just said to me. The Photographer inside of me was saying "DOOR OFF!!" but the voice inside my head was shouting "DOOR ON! DOOR ON!" The door was taken off as I had bravely asked for and I had my seatbelt put on (which was just like the seat belts you wear in an Aeroplane....) I couldn't believe myself as I semi hung out of this chopper and took Aerial shots of what I had just photographed at ground level.

Its going to sound terribly cheesy but I had never felt so alive. I cant imagine the rush you would get from jumping out of a plane, as this was enough for me. It was breathtaking and again I found myself saying "WOW!" over and over again. The giant trucks and diggers that had taken my breath away were now tiny ants amongst this huge area of land. Makes you realise how tiny us humans are....

Proof I had the door off!! The guy on the right is holding it.

Once I got back down to land I could not wipe the smile from my face. I wanted to go again. I later got the chance to and so did Cam. He was so cute. These photos were taken after he had been up in the Chopper. Look at that Grin!!

I was so grateful for the opportunity and I love that I am getting involved in a lot of different aspects of Photography and not just sticking to Portraits etc. This experience will be something that I will never forget and I hope to have more like it in the future.

From dinky toys to real life! I learnt so much. Experiences like these make me so excited for life and its unexpected turns. I would never have thought I would have had the opportunity to do this and call it my job! Loving it :)

Sorry it has been a lengthy post but I hope you have enjoyed seeing what have been up to. Hope you are having a good Monday and enjoy the rest of your week.
A.x